NTE,
Thanks for asking... It is going sooooo much better actually.
There have been bumps and hills in the interum but it has been good!



Update...

My 16 year old son is living at home again.. that is a whole other long story.

Hubby and I have had a few rough spots and he has been a bit moody .... but I can say I am really proud of me cause yesterday he came home and spent the day with me instead of going out of town to work . he let the crew go and he suddenly showed up , he took me to lunch and we went on a walk.( I love walks he hates "em) We sat on a bench and talked for a good half hour.

we got home and he was telling me I am too tired maybe later blah blah blah.....
I walked up to him with a Chesire Cat grin on my face....
unzipped his pants
pulled 'em down
and put " him" in my mouth.
No I am tired
No please stop doing that
Just a big fat smile.....



Yeah ME~!

See funny thing is he has always said he wanted me to be the sexual diva I used to be and lately he has turned me down alot.. I hoestly am beginning to wonder if he likes me to pursue him like this and " attack "* him?

* devour
* seduce
(for lack of a better term)

So all in all good.
I am still working on getting stronger.
reading A New Earth, listening to the podcats
And most of all enjoying him letting go and not making me feel pressured into being this sexaully ravenous Woman.

It kills the mood if he is always calling all the shots and also having this undertone of entitlement all day.

he has left those by the way side and it makes him so much more " doable"
Make sense?
I hope so....

I will post more later...


Oh yeah and I am proud of him... b/c before I could finish he wanted to ML and said but I will probably come right away.
My answer..."that is the idea silly"

It has taken me awhile to get here... but I can also say that reading passionate Marriage had helped me tremendously with tools for change. It helps tremendously to have his support. he has no idea I read this book for help but I am sure he is not complaining and he actaully changing to w/o having singed up for it.
thoughts?