Torn between hope and anger

[lise]

I've been trying to read through some of the threads on this topic and it is overwhelming me. I find it so depressing to hear how so many people are still in this horrible place months and years after it all started. I don't think I can survive what is happening to me and my M. Everything seems so hopeless and pointless...

HOW DO YOU ALL KEEP HOLDING ON?!? I am being crushed by the sadness and loss I feel. This is not the life I planned and I don't know what to make of the life I've been handed.