So how YOU doin'

[Lissie]

Thank you for all the well wishes for my baby girl.
I did smooch her.

Last night, the X lost his head I think.

He called last night to speak to the kids. I was in the living room when my son got on the phone.

J- to our son M. Why didn't you call me, when you got home? Does mami tell you not to call me?

M- no papi, I Just forgot to call you, I have a terrible memory sometimes. I just forgot.

J- I don't believe you, Don't you know it hurts me when you don't call me, when you are with me, you want to call your mother 100 times. Why are you lying to me? I know your mother says not to call me

M- Why are you talking about mami like this? she never says anything bad about you.

J-stop defending your mother all the time. NO one is saying anything bad about her. YOu knoe what, you don't want to call me fine. don't call me. I am not chasing you or your sister anymore. You hurt me when you don't call me.

M-, You hurt me when you left the house papi, you know.

J- I knew it, that is exactly something your mother would say. She is telling you that right? She is talking about me.Go put your sister on the phone.

M- She fell alseep, on her bed

J- See, that is what i mean, she doesn't love me enough to even call me. you know what Fine, I am not going to call if you want to talk to me, you can call me.


I know this is the conversation that took place, b/c i could hear him screaming on the other end of the phone.

If you knew my son, you would know that he is such an angel.

He is quiet and polite.

His eyes filled with tears, he came up to me and he said I don't do anything right.

I feel like the air has been ripped out of my body.

I don't know what to do anymore with this man.

He was being great, as soon as I had a fit that My son slept on the floor and i called my L he lost it.

When he found out that i spoke to his Gf he lost it.

This is how he gets back at me, taking it out on the kids.

Next weekend when he has them, I could imagine, he will shove his GF down their throat once again, and they will just have to smile and take it.

I called the therapist, for a visit before his scheduled visit.

blech


I can't even talk to him about it, he will just lose it, and blame me.

I don't underestand, it has been 2 years, I thought they get better, instead of worse.