Didi, No one will slam you. We all can see that you are working so hard to restore your marriage. You are right that you will have to tell your husband about the letter and the messenger conversation. Yes, It will hurt him, but it's not your fault. He would be more hurt if he found out you got the letter and were trying to hide it from him. For your marriage to work, you know that you will have to be totally transparent, I can see that is what you are trying to do. Although honesty sometimes hurt, it is definitely the best policy. Too bad there are not more WAS like you that are trying to do the right thing. I just know in my heart that your efforts will be rewarded...
Hugs, Yoyo
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon