Originally Posted By: MichelleLT
Get a herbal mood stabilizer or something in gel capsule form and just dissolve them in the Gatorade!!!


I really should, shouldnt' I?! Hmmm, I wonder if he'd notice any little floaties in his drink...



Today has been a decent one with no R talks thus far - Yay!!! - and none are likely to happen since H is gone for the night (work).

Before he left earlier this afternoon, he did talk to me about other things going on with work and one of his long-time friends, so that was cool...seeing as how he said before that he didn't like talking to me. \:\/ The only thing that wasn't cool about it though was that he was venting for 20 minutes straight about every incompetent thing his friend does, at work and in all other areas of his life.

I listened, kept eye contact here and there (I was putting things away, doing my chores), and validated his thoughts where I could. However, towards the end of his rant, I did tell him that perhaps he should do with (friend) what he is doing with SIL, and that was to realize that (friend) is just going to do what he wants, no matter what anyone tells him. H can try convincing him all he wants that he's "an idiot" (H's words) til he turns blue in the face, but the fact of the matter is that (friend)'s not going to listen if he doesn't want to. He didn't say anything. Just went into the living room with S3 to say bye.

Anyway, for the last couple of years, I've had this recurring dream (had it again last night) where I'm on an island (like Hawaii or wherever), and I'm trying to escape this massive tsunami. First, I'm on the beach with many other people, and I see it coming. The tsunami is in the distance, but it's growing, and growing, and it's getting closer and closer. Everyone's panicking (understandably so!) and running for their lives to reach higher ground, but it doesn't matter because this tsunami is HUGE! Like taller than the tallest skyscraper in the world! Just soooo HUGE!!!

Some other people and I always manage to take cover in a house or a building. Then the house gets engulfed by the tsunami but it's still intact. Doors and windows are sealed shut but there are small leaks in different places. I'm trapped underwater in that house hoping to God that it doesn't cave in. Then finally the water recedes, and I feel a sense of relief because I think it's over and so happy that I survived, until I look off in the distance again, and see another, even LARGER tsunami coming.

That's where my dream will usually end. It's as if it's "to be continued".

Last night's dream was different this time. Started out the same as always, but this time, H, S8, and S3 were there with me (don't know where S12 was - lucky guy!), and also this time, I didn't make it to safety. I was stuck with S3 in....I suppose an undercurrent of some sort. In my dream, I really felt like I was about to drown! My lungs were burning to take in some air, but of course, I couldn't, and I was trying so hard to hold on to S3, but the current ripped him away from me. \:\(

Somehow I made it out though. I think I lost consciousness in my dream and was awakened by the sound of people talking closeby. I was stuck in a ventilation shaft or something in a church. They heard me trying to claw my way out and helped me. Then I saw H there, and all I could ask him was, "Where are the boys? Where are they? Are they ok?" He told me that they didn't make it. \:\( After that, that's all I can remember.

What a HORRIBLE nightmare. Ugh!!

*Sigh*

Well I went on to this dream interpretation site and found it intriguing. This is what it had to say:


Tsunami
To see a tsunami in your dream, represents that you are being overwhelmed by some repressed feelings or unconscious material that is rising up to the surface. You are experiencing some unhappiness and emotional instability in some waking situation.

Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell