Looks like I need to come back here once in a while. OM sent me a letter in the mail. He poured out his heart. Said he was going to work on getting my love and trust back, etc. I knew I had to respond and quickly. I loaded up messenger, found him, and told him that I am back with my H and this is why I want "no contact". He didn't know this until I said that. When I had broken up with him before I thought he woudln't try to get back with me if he thought I broke up with him because of who he was, not because I was working on my marriage. I told H that is what I did, too. We both thought that was best. But, I guess not. So, anyway, I told him the reason behind the "no contact" and he said he understood and as much as he wants to, he can't do anything about the fact that I want my H. He said that he won't do anything to jeopardize my chance to be happy in my marriage.
So, why am I here if everything turned out fine? Because, now I am stressed about having to tell my H about the letter. It would kill him to read it. I want to burn it. And, because now I am thinking about the OM. Damn it. Damn it. Damn it. Just let me have it...slam me with the "get your head outta ur butt"s.
