Thank you "sisters of sanity" for arriving with a pat! I really appreciate it immensely. Figgy, Cascading smooches abound! Unfortunately, my traction has taken a sudden halt ONLY for the moment. Last night I sat my W down in our bedroom and closed the door to talk and discuss and PLEA for a resolution. Meanwhile "M" son was glued to our door outside. I explained that with the occurances of Mothers Day, any sort of authority I had (however slim) was now erroded to not only him but the other children as well. Since I have to spend the majority of my time with them and the house, they have now decided that they have to do NOTHING that I ask. She said "I guess that means I can't talk about my meltdown at work." I said "why not? You go ahead and then we need to discuss this situation." She went on and on how overwhelmed she is and the work load is increasing and she is having difficulty completing everything on time and she needs a vacation. She planned a vacation with the little one and her and the "m" son for the summer to go to Disneyland. She said I probably wouldnt be able to go because I will probably be at a new job by then and the oldest boy cant go because he has to take summer school....Whatev. I listened and repeated what she said and then asked for her help with the kids. I said that I was sticking up for her and she didn't get my back except for inserting a steely blade in it. She said that she talked to him and that was it and that I shouldn't have called his father without asking her first. I explained that in the past she had done the very same thing on numerous occasions with the exact wording. She said "I didn't mean it though" Anyway no resolve whatsoever. She said that there is nothing she can do and she is tired of me blaming my problems on everyone else. Tired of my paranoia, accusatory ways, nada nada nada. I yelled "I NEED YOUR HELP!!! Why can't you help me!!!" She sighed deeply and said impatiently"nothing I can do. You don't communicate and nada,nada, nada" I said "I guess I don't because I am not getting anywhere with this discussion." I calmly grabbed my keys and walked to a neighborhood pub and got a bourbon and a beer. I only stayed there an hour and came home and the lights were off and promptly slept on the couch. I woke up earlier in the morning and crawled into bed with the wife and little one(still and irritating situation). When she got up she made sure when the middle S was out in the hallway to scream at me that I have been sleeping around and having and A. She waved my cell phone in the air and told me I shouldn't be calling these people. The people I called where all friends of mine and 2 were Male and One was friend that both her and I knew for several years. I said that no one was home and didnt talk with anyone but once again the Middle "S" was standing there throwing things around and slamming the door. The middle S father comes over and immediately starts in with"anything else you want to spur on me?" I told him I didnt want to talk and that anything that comes out of my mouth gets twisted and spurned against me. My lips are sealed. That didnt work and then he started telling me that it wasnt any business of mine about how his son treats his mother and why hadn't I told him before. I replied I had on several occasions and it would work for a day or two and then M "s" mouth would arrive again with a demeaning tone and behavior. This is my house and he needs to at least give me that much respect especially with all I do for his Baseball, basketball and Football. HE just screamed at me in front of the little one who he wanted to take to the zoo. I told him to get out of my house and if he was going to the zoo then do so already. HE kept chiding me and I finally just said I need to go. when will you be back. He said at 2:00. I replied I will be home then. He said you will never see me again! I just grunted "go figure!" I called the place I had an interview at last week to see if the position has been filled and was told they went with another applicant that fit their needs more. He was a nice guy and I appreciated him taking the time with me. Oh well, keep scratching! I am hanging....visions of tropical beaches, translucent waters and immersing myself in something that hasnt bit me lately...myself. I had stockpiled a little money for while I was looking for a job but when I had mentioned getting away with just the W I was shot down. HMMM...Anyway, I am sure boredom to most but it helps me keep my thoughts somewhat vivid. Once again more I could write, coming home from Chicago with a mans sweatshirt and T-shirt from her friend there and opening up a Neiman Marcus account in my name....back to the OLE DAYS....Just a word to those piecing....you have to do the steps on a daily basis or you will be tripping wires twofold. I swore I would never let this happen again but here I am....this time just might be the last....peace
