this maryangela -thread 3 -- he's gone

[NikB]

Sorry you're sick! That's no fun.

As to the "misery" - what are you going to do to pull yourself out of it this time? You don't want to keep living that way, so time to work on goals to get out of it.

H acts like he couldn't care less about the whole thing. he shows SOME remorse with regards to Isabella, but me? Like yesterday's news. Like I'm nothing.

Because he's made his decision and needs to act this way to show he's "confident" in what he's doing. He doesn't want to feel any doubt and he sure doesn't want to SHOW any doubt. I can almost guarantee you, he cares a LOT - he just isn't going to show you that. Keep working on you, on being the better alternative.

Your H doesn't determine your self worth - YOU do. You're allowing yourself to feel like nothing because of his actions. It's your choice. Don't give him that much power OK? I know it's hard, really hard, but focus on KNOWING that you are "something," that you matter in the world, regardless of what he is or is not doing.

Even if he comes back you're in for a LONG road. Seriously, try to pretend he's been kidnapped and there is absolutely no way he will return for at least a year. Or imagine he's gone completely - in a car wreck or something (not to be morbied, just trying to convey the mindset that I mean). In this mindset - he's gone, you CAN'T contact him or rely on him for anything. What would you be doing with your life to move on? Do those things now.

Hope you start feeling better soon. Being sick is NO help when trying to keep positive, I know. (((Mary)))