Dar

you are not the only one to have suffered hardships, as BND stated.

we all have our burdens to bear...if they are witnessed by others or not

however

you seem to be a victim to your hardships

you put yourself there

you use them as excuses for any and everything

work on yourself
your self-esteem
your need for attention

not your scrapbooking
or your movie going

work on YOU