Countdown to DB day: seven days

[stella_k]

Thanks, Addie!

Every time someone tells me I sound great something happens :)!

H just called. He asked me if I have told the Friend that he (H) shouldn't come to trhe aiport :o. I said yes, I did tell him that, I've told you as well, as a matter of fact. I said, I'm sorry. "YOU are sorry?" he said, "What are YOU sorry about?". Then he told me about his first appointment, IC got him on meds and prescribed some sleeping pills. H has trouble sleeping for several years now.
We had a nice convo and then I heard a dog barking. Don't ask me how did I figure out that the dog has something to do with OW. It does. I didn't say anything, mostly out of fear that my voice would crack. After an awful silence H has told me that he wants to break up with OW but he doesn't know how to do it, he is afraid she'd die!!! You all should be proud of me, I didn't utter a word. He told me that the only thing he really wants right now is to wake up from this nightmare. And he said ILY, I need you to help me. I said ILY too, hold on. He said thank you. Then I backslided - of course! - and repeated ILY and called him by his pet name. I felt so sorry for him... As a result he was silent for a moment and then said good bye, in a muffled voice.

I'm not in "piecing " yet but I'm definitely in pieces once again!

I feel too agitated to analize my feelings... or too scared to feel anything right now.

D needs the comp, I'll be back later.