Real life's getting more like fiction each day (2)

[Starshyne]

I am just not at the point where I am reading to totally let go. I am still hanging on to that hope that he is going to snap out of this and come back and I will see the man I fell in love with again. As this continues on, I suppose that I will be ready to totally let go. I know I deserve better in life than the way he is treating me. But I still believe that he can and will treat me the way I should be treated again.

I never thought that him leaving that stuff might be an excuse to come see me. I thought it was odd that the 4 bags of stuff I packed up for him wasn't all taken. He took 2 bags and then left the rest in the garage. Maybe he was thinking of this as an excuse to come to the house. I am not sure since he hasn't been to the house. I am wondering how on earth he is going on without his glasses.

I know it is a little different for those of us without kids. I often wonder how things would be for us right now if we had children. But I feel like I need to mourn the children we were planning on concieving right now (were going to start trying in March 2008) because it isn't happening.

Thanks Jeff. He is lucky and he thinks that I deserve better than him. Maybe he is right, but I take my marriage vows that I said before God seriously. I can't just quit until I feel like I have tried everything I could do to save this marriage.