For the guy with kids and WW II

[hopeful4her]

Thanks to everyone who is keeping up with me. Makes me feel good to know people care enough to post. I will def. be making some changes in my approach. I'm just a little down today as I know that OM B-day is tomorrow and I think that WW has the day off.

What do I care, right?

Jeff and CBK, keeping up with you guys.

Jeff, I see what your strategy as far as the letting her abandon.

CBK, detaching and GALing. You and me both. For the life of me, I cannot detach from her. Things seeminly go so well for us. I have to keep thinking that is just an illusion. I went and hit some balls this weekend, too. Still got my short irons and putting, but my longs are gone. Gonna work on them. Been at least 3 years.

Will keep checking on you, wdid. Your doing very well. Proud of you. You help us all so much.


Got my normal end of the work day call from WW. She was finishing up some things and I reminded her that she needed to pick up nephew and friend(who is now living with us for a month now)from work. She get out as soon as she can. We agree that today will be "whatever you want to make for dinner" night. That means hot dogs, sandwiches or left overs. At home, I am laying in our bed with S14 and D11 watching tv. I had put D6 in the shower. WW comes home and sees us all laying down on our stomach's (tv watching position) and comes and lays across S and D and partially on me. Everyone is laughing and the kids are falling off the bed and play wrestling with her.

I am just observing and taking in this good stuff. I love this stuff. Watching her and the kids just fills my heart. I hope she feels the same when she sees us playing. WW tells me to come and see D laughing so hard on the floor. I am beaming. D6 makes it into the room and we are all laughing at her because her shirt is completly stuck to her because she never dries herself right.

We get kids dinner ready and they scatter to do their own thing. WW changes clothes and is back in kitchen. She asks me if I have seen the bank statement from her new accounts. I know that she thinks I am keeping them. I tell her that if I had seen them, they would be with the rest of the mail. Even D11 notices the question. I remain upbeat, and pretend like she didn't even ask the stupid question.

Filling my cup with ice from freezer with WW on the other side of the fridge door waiting for me to close it. I drop a piece of ice and WW picks it up and asks if I was trying to hit her with it. She then sticks it down my shirt! I yell, take it out and stick it down the front of her shirt. She's yelling and were are laughing and I get some more from my cup and stick some more down her back. She's running to the freezer and I run and I'm shoving ice down the back of her pants and she's stuffing ice down the front of my pants. We are cracking up and laughing and screaming! D6 is screaming and trying to get in on the action. WW and I stuff ice down her shirt.

We go one for about 10 minutes. I attack her one last time in the bathroom, because she had to go change her pants.

That is the good stuff. Later we are making what we want to eat and she prepares our plates. I go into our bedroom and finish watching some basketball and she sits in living room to watch a video. We have already put kids to bed. After the game, I sit with her to finish the movie on the sofa, together.

When finished, we talk about the movie and get to bed. She's asleep and I try to position myself for her to maybe put her arm around me. Didn't happen. Woke up later and our arms are tangled again. I enjoy it and fall back asleep.

With arms tangled, D6 awakens us. She had an accident. We are up. WW gets her into the shower, and I take care of her bedding. Back to bed with D6 between us.

This is my life. How can I detach from this.

I go from beaming with joy, to despair thinking about them. I have to keep the good times in my pocket, enjoy them and remain detached. I did go finish my game. I usually would have blown off what I wanted to do and sat down with her to watch the show.