the wheel is in abit of rut, perhaps 100 today, old feelings are trying to claw their way (can't believe this is happening, paying him off makes our separation permanent, he has/has not ow's tag on his car, etc etc) useless stuff, to which I know the answers to, but which come to me... when I'm happy. Isn't that crazy? when normalcy and those happy feelings come to me the default switch on my brain associates them to the last time (early 2005 before he left) that I felt that way when I was with him.
Grrrrrrrr, have to work on that, well, I just return the book on D support I had, I didnt' finish it, I think it is time to get another one to fend off the gremlins.
Stbx is home shopping, the refinancing is set for this friday. Mediator will email me revised version and H said he'll take it to his L, *groan* I thought we were just going to agree on it ourselves, great, so hopefully he won't come up with more stuff, I told him I will not do the refinancing until we sign off on the SA by Thursday.
On a lighter note, zumba day was moved to today (meeting old friends for lunch oin thursday). The instructor made me come up the stage, man! I have to work double hard when I'm up there, wow mama! Her mom asked me if I was an instructor, she loves my dancing, and toldme there rec center by my area has zumba and I were to be the instructor she'd go there lol! and for a sec I thought, maybe I can become certified and ... maybe, just maybe, teach a class at night, I dont' know, I love to dance but I wonder how good I'd be, I don't want to be a sucky teacher :P
Anyways, happy week all)))))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
