this maryangela -thread 3 -- he's gone

[NikB]

Mary - don't rewrite history like your H did. It's worth looking at the M, but not rewriting it in your head until it was some horrible M.

And it could ABSOLUTELY "suck more." A LOT more. Look at all the positive, good things that you have in your life. You have your daughter who is normal and healthy, your own health, a home to live in, career prospects... so much more. Stop the pity party.

I don't know if i should keep db'ing or what.

Why on earth would you NOT "keep DB'ing"? DB'ing is focusing on you, doing what works, making your future better. You want to do the opposite????

I feel like calling him right now and begging him to come home.

You want to chase him farther away? Why?

I don't know who he is right now. i really don't.

So quit focusing on him, and focus on you.