thank you jws. God, this couldn't suck more. Even though after doing some serious looking at the marriage that I know I wasn't happy myself for a long time due to his emotionally closed nature, I miss the f'ing little things!! just sitting watching t.v., taking turns running upstairs to handle Isabella's crying or destroying her room. Talking about the funny things Isabella just said or did, "daddy, I can't get up for school right now because I have to stretch!". just crazy, little things like that. how do you get past that? you can't just go to the store and find another person just like that to go on with, you know? these things were unique to HIM and I guess I'll never have that again. I wanted SO BADLY to raise Isabella together (my parents divorced) and that's what I ALWAYS thought he wanted too.
I don't know if i should keep db'ing or what. I feel like calling him right now and begging him to come home. I know that's sick given how healthy I sound in above posts, but this whole thing has been sick since day one of "bomb" end of feb. I don't know who he is right now. i really don't.
