Pregnant and heading for acceptance #2

[Tomato]

I think you are doing great B.

I am going to send some prayers up for you and Kendall.

GAL as much as you can. You will soon be in the delivery room. Are you getting excited? I am thinking of you. Have a great Tuesday.

[NikB]

FG - excellent advice and something I have found to be sooo true for myself too, recently. B I think Forrest is 100% on when he says that the kiss was a control thing. It keeps you hooked.

My H left, came back, and then after bomb #2 told me that his biggest problem was "I never thought I might lose you. I knew you were waiting for me." He even admitted to some of the game he played. The look on his face when I said "Don't be so sure" was priceless but... ACTION would have been far better for me, then. Play hard to get B - he wants a challenge.

As sad as it is he doesn't want the "comfortable" (in your mind) "go home to wife and child." He wants that challenge, right now.

If you want an example, check out SallyM's latest posts in "Surviving the Big D" - yes it looks like she's headed for D but she's a tremendous example in HOW to handle the "wavering" spouse right now. I'd love to have her strength. I'll have to learn from it instead, maybe you can too.

About Kendall - wow you're getting close right?? I'm excited for you.

[blindsided1]

ST - yes, today is another day. I feel good today.

Forrest - I definitely can see where the kiss could be a control thing. But, he usually kisses me goodbye. This time it was in front of his parents. That's why it was unusual. But, it's already out of my mind (kinda). I'm trying to be less accessible and a little more aloof. I think another way he exerts control is with the money. He has told me EVERYDAY since Friday that my money would be in the bank THAT day. It is still not there. Sometimes I wonder if he does it so I have to beg or contact him. It drives me nuts. Last night I texted him and politely asked if he could please get it in the bank that day. He said sure not problem. He was texting me about school and my job and I responded. Then, I just said "I have to go. Thanks for putting the money in tonight, have a good night". He texted me twice after that and I didn't respond. Money is STILL not in the account. Aaaaarrrrggggghhhhh. So, I am NOT texting him today to remind him. He is supposed to be at class tonight and I will address it then. It kind of felt good not to respond to his last two texts.

Jenny - You definitely sound busy. Hope all is well. Hope the house selling/buying is going smoothly.

Tomato - your prayers are always welcome and needed. I am getting excited, but very nervous about the delivery. I'll need those prayers.

Nik - I hope you are doing well. I haven't been over to your thread lately. I think you are definitely right about him NOT feeling like he could lose me. I'm just trying to be realistic and not read too much into anything, either way, good or bad. I have so much I feel that I need to do before the baby gets here and I'm occupying my head with that stuff as much as possible. It helps.

Well, off to another Doctor's appointment. I'll check back in soon.

[NikB]

I'm just trying to be realistic and not read too much into anything, either way, good or bad.

And you're doing VERY well with it, too!! Glad to see it.

[Startingover2]

You are getting close to meeting Kendall. I can't believe it. So excited for you. I promise you, when she comes your thinking will change. It will go into more protection mode.

You are doing good in keeping H at a distance. Good job. I know its hard and especially right now when you are at your most vunerable time of your life. Some how it will all turn out right. You will be strong and a great mom to Kendall.

I am sorry I haven't been around much. Haley keeps me so busy I dont have much time to get on here anymore.

[blindsided1]

NIk and SO2 - I feel pretty good. It feels like my thinking is changing already. I really am trying to put my focus on Kendall and not so much on H. Although, there are times when all I do is think of him.

Just got back from the Doctor. The baby is perfect. My blood pressure is good, no UTI's, my blood sugar is good, she's right on track size wize. I'm happy right now.

[NikB]

YAY!!!

I'm happy for you, too. SO glad the appointment went well.

[S.T. _I Made It!]

Awesome B!!!!

on the goodbye kisses, I'm back and forth on this.

If he is kissing you goodbye I have a feeling you may be lingering too long. Why not try to be in a hurry instead so he doesn't have the chance to do it.

What is he doing exactly? kiss on cheek? mouth? tongue? surely not french kissing. just curious, if it's on the mouth, then turn your cheek to make him kiss you there instead. I think that would throw him off enough too.

So glad your changing your focus! It helps so much, and you sound so much better.

[ann25]

Hey blindsided... just from the advice you gave me, i can tell you are at a much better place than you were last time i was here. That little girl is going to have an awesome mommy.
Glad to hear she is doing well. Not too much longer and you'll be holding her in your arms...

take care... ann