I will channel my anger, not into bitterness, but into (1) sorrow for the death of this M, (2) the drive to GAL and improve my life, and (3, most of all) the determination to do what is best for me and for my S's. I am praying to the Lord constantly to keep the root of bitterness from my heart.
Hi, NoCode! You know I've always thought your sitch was a lot like mine and you even seem to be going through some of the same thoughts as me lately. I still love my H, but don't like him b/c of his actions kind of thinking. I was depressed yesterday thinking about having to deal with him for the next 10 years until the kids are grown--dealing with a critical, negative, manipulative, controlling (have I left anything out? ) person. One thing that makes me feel better for some reason is that it is hard for me to deal with just a few minutes each day with H's negativity, but how hard it must be for him to have to live with himself all day! I prefer to live positively, allow people to make mistakes without freaking out as my H and your W does. It must be hard to live lives like they do I would imagine! And what must they think of themselves if they are critical of us?
I had a down day yesterday, think I was tired b/c I didn't sleep much the night before, and my D8 and I slept an extra hour this morning and I feel so much better. I haven't been exercising as much lately and I want to step that up, during the play I was excersizing probably a dozen hours a week and felt so good! Now I'm down to an hour or 2, so I want to double that I think.
My sil is always saying how great mediation is, and I think it is too, but from what I've read in several places, you have to have 2 fairly agreeable people that are willing to compromise and I don't know that your W qualifies. It is a shame, but what can you do? I'm sure I will be going through that as well with my difficult H. I hope you can be positive and not get bitter, I work on this every day too! Karen
) person. One thing that makes me feel better for some reason is that it is hard for me to deal with just a few minutes each day with H's negativity, but how hard it must be for him to have to live with himself all day! I prefer to live positively, allow people to make mistakes without freaking out as my H and your W does. It must be hard to live lives like they do I would imagine! And what must they think of themselves if they are critical of us? 
