Ready for the long ride.

[LucasE]

Thank you M. Don't follow me too close until I get somewhere. I'm not proven. Well, we did go on our first date in six months this Sat. I got to try to remember the progress. Small steps. Slow and Steady. What a trip.

I think my M is a very special case, but that's what makes this website so good, all the WASs are special. Which hopefully makes them not special, and therefore, bound to some earthly rules. So far my M has been following rules I never heard of.

My day finally settled when I got home and did the hand off of the kids. Now they're mine, HA HA! I get to feel secure for about 8.5 more hours and then it starts all over. I made a C session for Wed. W just texted. Seems as if my being angry with W this morning hasn't lead her to the lawyer just yet. She seems the same. Which is better than that alternative. I think. I really believe she has got to go on this journey all the way. I don't know why, but that's how it seems.

I have some words of wisdom: Try to avoid spending a holiday alone. Really alone. I saw no one, I spoke to no one. I thought it would be nice. I read a couple relationship books (getting back together and how to get your lover back.) But being alone and not reaching my mother and not seeing M or the kids, I kind of freaked. That is certainly why I got so mad at M this morning. Which, by the way, I truly believed to be a good thing because I NEVER get mad. Ever. Hey! That's a 180! I'm sure if someone saw it they wouldn't have seen it, but that was mad for me. I'm not totally proud of it as I believe that anger is negative and not constructive. Usually. Heck, I don't know, do I? Good questions for the C.

Sleep tight everyone. L