Real life's getting more like fiction each day (2)

[Starshyne]

Thanks Kris, I think I really needed to hear that. I guess somewhere in my mind is that he is having this great time out there without me and has forgotten about me. While everything I see reminds me of something about him, I think that nothing is reminding him of me. But that can't be the case, can it? We spent just about every moment together for 7 years, so he has to be thinking of me.

I am scared that he is never going to miss me. That he is loving this new life so much that I am the last thing that crosses his mind. But I know that he has to miss me a little.

Day 2 without hearing from him. I think that is the longest I ever have been without at least talking to him. It seems longer since I really haven't talked to him as in have a real conversation since a week ago tonight.

I wonder where he is sleeping. I wonder who he is with. These things keep me awake at night.

My guitar lesson went really well. My teacher (the cute guy) says that I am doing really well. I have played the guitar for like 15 years now. I took lessons when I was in jr. high and decided when all of this went down to get back to taking lessons to learn more and get better. It is fun because I alreay knew the basics, so I am not starting from scratch. I am playing all Beatles songs because that is what I want to play. My teacher is really nice (and adorably cute and such a dedicated husband) so that helps a lot as well. Guitar has been a nice escape from all of this.

Sara