Havent heard from H at all today. Makes me really nervous that he could be there with OW!!! I really dont think he is BUT you never know. So today I was cleaning and came across a journal that H had wrote in while away for work training back in 2000. He wrote in it for me to read about what he was doing while he was away. We were only allowed to talk once a day for 10 minutes and then I saw him on the weekends. Anyway H went on and on about how much he loved me, missed me thought of me 24/7, couldnt stand being away, and we got engaged during this time.. you get my point. So all day I have been down....what happend to those times and is it really possible that he will ever feel that way again? I dont want to get back into a loveless M. Is it possible to have that again?
I'm also very confused about why he hasent called. I know this is time for him to clear his head, but if he wants to move back into our house next week dont you think he would keep in touch? I'm not sure we are ready for it either. I'm so confused on what to do. I want him here but at the same time I dont think he is ready and I dont want to go thru all of this again. Meaning him moving out, me being dissappointed. I know our son is young but he does understand a lot more of this than H thinks. As far as daddy not being around. It's been a bad day and I'm ready for it to be over!
