The best time of my life 2

[Treese]

YR;

YES! YES! My H does avoid me and will like almost drops something in my hand rather than take the risk of touching me....sometimes it is ridiculous....sometimes I laugh....rare but I think, wow, this isn't my H at all....he would always touch me and cop a feel or stuff like that....it's in there....just has to come out...that's why I don't give up....my heart tells me to stay....we belong together...some day but for now....I dont like him very much...or I mean his actions....

He says it's not about him, it's about US, our relationship...and I used to believe that but it was all about him....all I did was take care of my family...oh, I have things I've worked on....but never did I think it would end our marriage....it's not over til its over and even then it's not....

Thank you so much for talking to me....sometimes I feel so alone in all this....and I do analyze way too much...and probably think he is with OW more than he is but what else can I think....except I'm learning to put that stop sign up in my head.....it works sometimes...other times it tears me down...

D21 was home all weekend....saw that I was losing it on Saturday, crying and everything was going wrong...she came to the rescue...she fixed the internet and kept S10 all day yesterday while we were at volleyball with D15....she is a wonderful daughter....and I look at her and think, wow, when I was her age I was about to give birth to her.....makes you think.....but my kids and I spent the evening together and at one point we were upstairs and I looked at all of them and said, "look, all my children are with me....and I smiled...they laughed and we went and sat on S10's bed and chatted....H will never have that....that's a moment in time that's mine alone....

God Bless you YR.....and I'll probably keep at you with questions...I hope you dont' mind....

Treese