I sit here in tears. H just left. We had a horrible awful fight tonight. Words that hurt flew all through the air. I walked away, but was guilty of yelling too. We have so much anger. H will not budge on the house, says I am selfish, the whole bit. Once again our cycle, I try to stay on track and he brings up my 'list of why you are a horrible wife'. It was not pretty. I am very uncomfortable with the hate he has for me, and the hate that is growing in my heart.
I am so sorry lwb. I know how it feels to take the brunt of that kind of anger. I think I have that "horrible wife list" ingrained into my brain. Oddly, this hasn't gotten any better for me since he filed. I try and try to detach myself - that's what we should do, right? - but, I seem to fail miserably ALL the time!!
You know what they say about hate... it isn't the opposite of love but very close to it. It's still an emotion that you feel toward each... negative.. but still emotion..Not sure what you do with that, though.
Originally Posted By: lwb
This is from my H who has been chasing me around the house for weeks for sex.
My stbxh still blows up at me and then, wants sex... Call me crazy but, I don't think it's makeup sex when you are in the middle of a D!
Originally Posted By: lwb
I love my girls, they are my world. I hope I am theirs as well.
Of course you are...There is nothing better than having your babies to love
