Things seem to be going well so far with my H and I.
This may sound superstitious, but last friday I saw a rainbow. I have been waiting a year and a few months to see one again, and it was a magnificant rainbow ring all around the sun (I have never seen one like it before). But last year on the day my H left me, it was sunny and raining and I saw the biggest and brightest rainbow ever. I thought to myself that day, that it was a sign from God that I will either be allright/healed or back with my H the next time I would see one. I have been looking and waiting, and it finally appeared. I think it was a sign from God, especially because it was in the shape of a ring.
That same day, When I got home from work my H and I got together for dinner. He gave me a gift. It was a diamond "Life's Journey" neclace. I practically melted. I felt so good about the fact that he picked it out due to the name of it. I felt like this was another good sign from God - as I had previously planned on telling my H (before he came back to me) that If he doesnt want to go through "life's journey" with me that I would be just fine on my own. Thank God I never had to say those words, But it seems like fate that the necklace is the same exact name as the wording I was going to use if he asked for a D.
We saw our old friends band play at the restaurant we ate at and my H actually spoke and said hi to many of his old friends and even their parents. Afterwards he was willing to go to his old best friends house for a few drinks and that went well also. Then we walked to his apartment and I asked him if I could stay the night & of course that was great too!
On saturday, we spent the day apart and then went out to dinner and Watched movies all night and stayed at my place that night.
He showed me the apartment he is going to move into for a while until we know that we are solid. It is so wierd and awkward to have him move and not be back home with me. He will be in an apartment in which the girl bartender from his favorite bar is living down stairs. This is a huge red flag for me. I dont know if I am too comfortable with this move. I have never met this girl, but I have major trust issues now.
My H said he has no idea how long he will stay thier. He even said to me at one point that maybe we would just be better off not living together at all, and that many couples do that. Then he said he realizes that is no way to raise a family however and so he would hope that before next winter we have some arrangement together figured out. I told him we will figure something out as time goes on.
I agree that we shouldnt rush our move back in w/each other, but I feel like this is just a desire for him to still have his freedom and I know he is gonna party with his friends and hers there because it has a bonfire pit (and he has told me they all allready have done that). I most likely would be invited now, but I dont know how comfortable I would feel. I dont think thier is any thing going on with this girl, but I just hate that arrangement.
Am I too jealous & making a bigger deal out of this than it needs to be??? TIPPER
