The field trip was nice. The weather was beautiful and the kids really enjoyed it. It was a difficult time for me. I kept remember the last time I was there with my H and all of the fun things we did. It was almost some sort of a flash back thing. I would see something there and suddenly I would vividly remember us doing something. It just made me feel sad, and I kept try to shake it away. I know that my H would love to go there right now and then I start thinking of him taking someone else there and I just get myself all sad. I know I need to stop that type of thinking, but it is just so hard.
I left H a text message today of "Have a great day!" I didn't get anything back from him, so I guess I need to stop leaving these messages and just stop talking to him.
Have I mentioned that I hate this? I do. This has to be the single most awful thing that I have ever endured. I know that there has to be a rainbow out there somewhere in this storm, but right now I can't see it through all of the grey clouds.
Sara
Me-31 H-38 M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs No kids Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06 Found out about OW 12-24-07 Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08 OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08 OW is back 4-19-08 H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08 Filed for divorce 6-5-08 Divorced 7-2-08
