Have been corresponding with H this morning some. His email ended with:

"Regardless of all this stuff, it kills me to see this family break apart, as much as I feel venom towards you at the moment, I literally don’t know if I can go through with this and have to live with splitting our kids lives apart. I’ve been physically and mentally destroyed thinking about this, though I do know that some day, life will go on and I believe that they will lead good healthy lives either way. I can also tell you that either way, I’m going to try to live a good life and one that I can look back on knowing that I made mistakes, but that in general, I took the right path.

That’s all for now, I still do love you and care tremendously about our family, despite all and I hope everybody is doing OK at the house (of cards) today."


Me: 42/H: 37
T: 10 years/M: 8
D9, S8
Bomb: 7.23.07
Separated: 1.20.08
D Final 3.19.09
Affair started in '05, found out parts in 11/07. They married 11.26.09

My life is good.