Will it make it easier on you

[MichelleLT]

I got the impression that he misses how things were with us the first 4 years approximately. Which really was up until he got deployed - the long distance was very hard on us, and we'd both changed by the time he got back. We definitely grew apart. He was miserable after he got home, and although I definitely wasn't the cause of all of it, I didn't help in a lot of ways. One comment he made is that he was the happiest he's ever been and also the most miserable with me. I think if he was sure he would be happy again, he'd be much less hesitant.

Underneath, I'm sure there is some guilt about the A and he doesn't know how to make it up to me. But I have been very careful to not say anything to try and rub it in, never said anything to him about catching him talking to OW the other week either.

I do want to try and do Retrovaille in July, but he might be out of state for training. I haven't brought it up yet. He does seem more comfortable talking to me about his plans for the summer though. All progress.

I gotta run to meet a friend for coffe. I will elaborate more in a bit.