Sent H a last email this morning. A bit too long, but oh well. I really feel that at this point I need to do what I need to do. I've learned the DB principles well and will continue to use them, but at the same time, I need closure. So the email said pretty much what I feel, mostly that he was unable to face himself and that I feel I put 110% into fixing us and didn't get much in return. The email ended with telling him I will be seeing a lawyer, but that I will not be filing papers. That I don't believe divorce is the answer, but I will not fight him getting one. That all the moves are now his.
Sad, but I definitely feel more free. Him being able to do what he did on Mother's Day allowed me to cut the final cords of attachment and I think I'm just about as detached as I can get, though I have a feeling I may surprise myself with how much more detachment is possible.
The rest of my life begins now.
Me: 42/H: 37 T: 10 years/M: 8 D9, S8 Bomb: 7.23.07 Separated: 1.20.08 D Final 3.19.09 Affair started in '05, found out parts in 11/07. They married 11.26.09