Your doing really well B. Just keep trying to let all that anger go. I know it's not fair, but just remember the goal. I still feel you have lots of hope for saving your M.
On your H's phone calls, He's just trying to be in control. He doesn't like you having this other life now and you not giving him all the attention. Perhaps he even hangs up real fast cause he's afraid OW will find out. wouldn't that be ironic.
On him kissing you in front of the family. hmmmmm. I'm not sure about that one. I'm stumped. I would just take it at face value, that he still has some type of feelings for you, whether it be attraction/caring/etc.
On the tour, I would not bring it up to him, let him do that, and YOU just act like your excited about it, and him not going isn't going to let you down one bit. And you going alone is not compensating for his shortcomings. Your taking care of yourself and being responsible for yourself and your baby, not for him. Paying for his debts, or calling his work because he's hungover and won't go in, sending a card for his mother because he forgot... those are things your compensating for. But Your not, you've been really good about not being his "mother".
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
