Question for butterflymom

[Treese]

BFM;

Thanks for responding....I did initiate the sex thing quite a bit...and he knows if he asks I would, but I really don't think he ever will....that is what is sad to me...he said he's not attracted to me anymore, that sex was becoming a chore (he seemed to like it...which hurt like heck when he said it....when I look at him sometimes he looks so good and i want to make love to him...he says he won't do anything that will give me hope...that he can't even smile at me because I will think everything is okay....

I really wouldn't....I just want to be close to him...to smell him....I miss that so much...and the fact that I'm so lonely...even for conversation...he was my best friend...I told him everything...now he's telling OW everything and she is living our dreams....

My heart tells me to wait it out and I told H that a few months ago and he says its all in my head....he's not in love...and I have to move on...even told me.."why do you keep making me hurt you by saying I don't love you"....I never asked him to tell me that....

I saw him over the weekend because D21 was in town and he actually looks me in the eye, and I see pain but I might be imagining it because I want to believe he misses us....I dont think he does though....when he left yesterday he didn't tell me goodbye but told the kids he loved them and goodbye...why can't he even say goodbye to me?? Is it because I told him several weeks ago how hard it was on me every time he leaves....he always leaves when I leave the room or go upstairs....How do you know if they miss you?? or do you???

thanks for all the advice.....I really do appreciate it....

((((hugs))))

Treese