Purr, It sucks. I'm just having to trust others that it will get better. I mean I haven't talked to her in 5 months now. It ended so horrible. It's almost like a dream/nightmare that she was even in my life at one time now. But I'm not going to lie, I miss her horribly still. I am working really hard on me. I'm in great shape, working really hard at my job and doing my best to serve God. Yet, I still feel my life's purpose was to be married, have children and live out my vocation of being married. I am living, but I am also existing. I crave a relationship and I've had opportunities for others but right now I just feel that its not right to have one. Part of me feels sadness that at my young age, I can see myself living (and dying) alone.
