Thank you for the vote of confidence! I sure did want to call & talk to H about her but I was good & didn't. I hope one day H will contact me & asked about the dogs but I'm not sure he will right now. Maybe with time.
I know my girl is old now but I really need her & I think she knows that. I'm slowly getting her on these supplements & eventually will change the diet. I've got to do it slow so it won't mess her up.
Thank you both for your support. I'm still having a hard time but today I'm a little better. I'm doing my best to turn it over to God but that is easier said that done.
I'm so happy for both of you & your sitch's. It sounds good!!!
I'm having a rough night. I thought I was doing pretty good today but I have a hugh tree limb down in my back yard & it covered my tomato plants. I will have to have a chain saw to remove, it covers half my back yard. My 80 year old Dad will help, thank goodness he is still able but I sure miss my H!! My folks are going to stay a week with me so that will be good.
Then I saw a woman on TV that looks like the OW, I've only seen pictures of her but she looked like her & here I go again. I thought it was supposed to get easier. Right now it is not! I keep praying for that phone call, I'm sure it hasn't been long enough but it's so hard!!! I just miss him so bad!!!!
I understand where you are coming from NLT. My W is Asian and every dang add or commercial I see has some long haired beautiful young Asian lady in them and it just cuts me to the bone. I am getting stronger but I certainly have my moments of pain. I get better at dealing with it but not always.
And you haven't been dealing with it as long as I have!! I'm just not sure I'll ever get over this. We were the couple most likely to succeed.
I just keep hoping H will come out of this MLC & realize what he has done. This OW is bad news for him & she is worse than anyone he has ever dealt with. He told her in an email that I saw that she was way out of his league. He is right.
I'm glad you are getting stronger, thanks for checking in on me! I know we have to turn it over to God but like I've said before that is easier said than done!
Well, sometimes I am a little better. I'm cleaning the house today getting ready for my parents tomorrow. But I start thinking about things he said to me & then again I think about how close we once were & could talk about anything. I guess it was the MLC that did this to him. I try not to think about it but I just miss him so bad!!!
Today has been a month since I've seen or talk to him. Up until all of this we could hardly go a day without talking, of course this was before OW came along.
I'm glad your parents are visiting, hopefully it will take your mind of H and cheer you up some!
It's only too natural to have these blue moments when you cannot stop brooding over the past and imagining H with OW. I've had tons of them! Then I started using the "Stop!" sign and it helped .
Hope you'll have a great time with parents.
((((Hugs))))
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
I guess I still feel like this is a dream, well nightmare & I'll wake up soon.
I know that dream! Sigh.
How does your GALing go? What are you doing to pamper yourself?
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
Well, I haven't done too much lately to pamper myself. I've been taking care of the dog & that has been taking a toll on me with all these supplements I'm giving her, changing her food & just trying to figure out how to fix it!! Oh man, it's a lot. But she ate the last couple of days pretty well, so I'm pleased about that. They did say she had lots of problems so that worries me but they also said she knows what I'm going through & is staying strong for me. I just hope I can keep her around a while longer. No kids, so these dogs are like my kids.
My parents are staying with me for a week now & helping me around the house taking care of some things. They are really aging & that bothers me, I guess I've been able to tell it more this time that ever before. Of course this D has had a major effect on them & my Mom gets so mad & starts talking about him & OW & I just don't need some of that. I don't want to hurt her feelings so I just have to let her talk. They come from the old school & they don't talk about family problems, when all this first happened last fall she kept telling me not to say anything to anyone & I told her I had to. She didn't & wound up in the hospital, low sodium but also nerves & depression. Finally she started talking & hasn't stopped, that helped her so I can't really say I don't want to hear it right now. I try to change the subject pretty quick.
They are very angry at him & are saying things about him that I know are not right & sometimes I will defend him & they don't like that at all. My Dad will say, how do you know & I will tell him it's b/c & knew him so well. He said you don't know him at all. I don't think he understands this MLC, I don't either but I've read so much that I do more than he does. They think he has been like this all along but never showed it until now. I don't believe that at all!
I'm having lonely times, even tho they are here. As I told someone, I miss our secrets we had together & now he is telling OW. I just can't understand the hold she has on him.
Since we are D, I'm worried that his pride won't let him come back. I just don't know.
I hope you are doing well, Stella. I know you are busy right now with your sitch, you don't know how much I appreciate you checking on me & giving me advice.
