Supermom and the Brighter Tomorrow

[JennyF]

I'm exhausted.

I had a really great time last night with friends. It was a little uncomfortable because MIL was there...we get along well...but she has this way of completely ignoring the circumstances and it drives me nuts. I don't want to dwell on it all the time but it would be nice if she didn't pretent it didn't exist and everything is perfectly fine.
I received my invite for the wedding (for the people's whose stag and doe it was last night)...I hate seeing my name only. The hyphenated my name with my maiden name...I hated that too but can understand why they did it.
Speaking with the Bride to Be last night she told me that H has not been sent an invite. That the Groom hasn't decided if he wants to invite him. He doesn't want anything to do with him actually. It's weird because I only know them through H and this guy used to be one of H's closest friends. Oddly enough he is marrying SIL's best friend. SIL is the maid of honour.
I told her that she and 'groom' need to make whatever decision is best for them...that's its not about be in any way and I would be ok with whatever they decide. She said that even if they did invite him OW would not be invited. I tried not to act too excited when she said that but said I appreciated it!
Now that's a far cry from OW being invited to that party last weekend and me not being invited isn't it?

Lizzy....I reread the e-mail this morning that I typed to H last night and boy am I glad I didn't send it. I had no intention of sending it...I have an entire draft folder full of e-mails I've never sent. It always feels better to get it off my chest as if I'm saying it to him and then never actually send them. I highly recommend it.
I was a little more than tipsy last night...first time since I can remember actually. I wasn't too hungover thank God. S slept until 7:15 and then went back to sleep after his bottle so it was good. D and I didn't get out of bed until 9.
She was so sweet! She had hidden my Mother's Day present that she made me at school and remembered to go and get it for me along with the cards my Mom had given her to give me from the kids. She was really excited and I had a lot of fun with her.
We went and had brunch with MIL so the kids could wish her a Happy Mother's Day. It's good now that H isn't living there any more I can go there...although I think it confused D a bit because she isn't used to seeing me there.

While I had a good Mother's Day, I had a really hard day too...emotionally. I think hormones are a factor since I stopped nursing last week, but I've been crying a lot today. D caught me at one point and I felt really bad about it. H called to wish me a Happy Mother's Day...I was shocked.

I'm absolutely beat as I usually am after my weekend with the kids. So I'll be in bed early tonight because I have a busy day tomorrow with the agent coming at 3...I have to get my house ready for her to take pictures. And trust me...with what D did to this house today it is in no shape for that!
J~