Real life's getting more like fiction each day....

[Starshyne]

Thanks again everyone...you are right. H can't make me totally look like the bad guy. I mean you don't ask someone to leave the house for no reason, right? So once they hear the reasons, then any reasonable person would understand.

I haven't contacted H in any way today. It has been difficult. In a way it doesn't seem real. All of his things (except for the clothes and a few other items that I packed up) are still here. It looks like he is just gone on a trip and will return soon. I am not really sure if everything has really hit me yet.

I hate the fact that I don't know where he is. I have no idea if he is sleeping in his car, at a woman's house, a hotel, etc. But I know that I need to let that go and not think about it. This whole thing is just really hard. Hard to be here in the house alone, hard to see things that remind me of him, hard to not know where he is. I know that I did the right thing, but it is still difficult. Yet I do feel relief finally.