Holding Pattern

[JWS]

I am going insane. i have been giving her space and trying to do all the right things but i have not heard a thing from her in a week.

I am working hard at work, i play with my puppy, i work out for myself, I even went to church today for the first time without a special occasion. I feel like my life is moving on and the world has not ended but i can't fill every minute of every day and when the missing her pops in my head i can't shake it.

Three weeks ago she was so upset to leave and wanted to put the R on hold but keep the best friends part going but now she won't talk to me at all. I don't even want to work on the R right now. I know it is too soon for her. She is going to need time to figure out her own life but it would be nice if she let me know how she is doing now that she is almost 800 miles away.

I just don't understand any of this, things were going so good, she was happy. it has not even been two months since she professed to me that "she realized how close she came to losing me and would never again do anything to jeopardize that"