Hi guys, spent time with my dad at the hospital today. Things look Okish.
**Lisa, the biopsy came out, it's stage II. Many lymph nodes are affected. 15 out of 25 taken out. It doesn't sound promising, does it? I was actually surprised it wasn't already stage III granted he could not eat or drink anything before the operation. I am still optimistic. Am I wrong to be?
H came by to stay with the kids. No much interaction with him. Friendly and ... distant again. He called many times while I was at the hospital to learn how things were going. He had visited my dad in the morning before he came to our house.
Ali, I didn't call my C until I came back. 2 hours ago. She said that he surprised her by telling her he wanted to discuss the exercise he had sent her weeks ago. Last time he went there he told her "I do not wish to talk about it".
So they did. He said he wants to come home, he scared he hasn't changed any (while I have) and that that will take us back where we were. That's no news. But he was more concrete and talked about how the future might be. He said THERE IS NO ONE else. That he is so preoccupied with this he can't even enjoy a drink with his friends (or GFs if I may add). She told him we are different people now, the same cannot happen. She asked him if he ever told me about the thing she hated and discussed them with me. He said "yes, right before I left". She said "then it was too late". She told me he has no guilt or he is not thinking about coming back because of his sense of "duty". He actually feels good that he left when he did because we were going to kill each other if we stayed in the same house. Ia sked her if she sees me becoming a DB dino. She said, "No way. He is right before making a decision and if he comes back, I can tell you it will be a conscious and very well thought decision". (Amen!!!).
