For the guy with kids and WW II

[hopeful4her]

Can I love the woman that has the unreal high expectations of what a husband or father is? Of what a man is? The woman who has to have her needs met, but is not able to see that I have needs as well. Who is unable to understand how to compromise. The one who believes that she is broadminded, but is actually narrowminded in her thinking?

Yes, I love this woman. I do pray for her to make changes in herself. I have lived with these for 14 years now. I know her issues, but I just accepted them. A lot of baggage that she has brought into our relationship. Too much to talk about. Now, through prayer and setting the example of change, she might make the changes. If she doesn't, then I keep on praying.

My car started leaking coolant yesterday, so I got up early this a.m. and tried poking around. Remember, I am not the fix it up kind of guy. I have a 99 volvo that I bought used from a dealer friend of mine. Got a great deal. A great deal of issues. Everything is so compacted under the hood. Can't see anything. I know it is leaking from somewhere in the back of the motor and under. I get the jack and lift. I'm a little reluctant to get under the car, because things like that kind of freak me out, and I don't have the blocks to put under the car. Besides, WW had a cousin the was killed about 2 years ago from a truck falling on him. I always think about that. Terrible way to go. Underneath, I still can't see where it is leaking, but I see the dripping. I'm on top and back down under sevaral times I get up from under, look at the coolant reservoir and it is already low. I go to water hose to fill a jug, and I hear a thud. I look back and my car is shaking. It fell off the damn jack! I mean, I was just under there one minute before! If that!

I go inside and I'm trying to keep my compusure. Why does God keep looking after me? My WW? I am prone to getting a racing heart beat. Had it for years, and just lived with it. Up to about 80 beats a minute. Feels like I am jogging. Never told anyone. Told WW last year, who told my mother who made an appointment with a heart specialist. From the doctor to the ER to stress test and a heart cath a year ago January. Non life threating electrical problem.

The effects from her stroke last year were gone in 2 months. Completely.

I am trying to gather myself and I want to talk to the kids. I call and they are already at the pool. I am talking to WW about her morning and she talks about how she thought the room came with a free breakfast. She had gone down to get some and picked up a plate and someone came and told her she needed a coupon for breakfast. We laughed at how her stomach growled at the guy. I could hear the girls having fun. I feel better and I tell her that I just wanted to call and check on them. I tell her my story and she reminds me of her cousin and gets on my case. That would not have been a good thing to come home to. I know. I'm stupid. She asks if I'm alright, and I tell her yes, but I am still freaking out and trying to keep my composure. She can hear it in my voice. She tells me that someone is looking out for me. I want to ask her why, but I just agree.

She tells me to leave the car alone. She'll call me when they are getting on the road, but she'll have the girls call me when they get out of the pool.

Ok, bye.