I am thinking of giving up

[Mojones]

I started an email today to my H to let him know that I realize that he does not love me and I cannot change it by being sad or wishing it wasn't true. He wants to be free and I may tell him to be free today. I want my H back but I don't know what else to do.It is not what I want but I don't know what else to do. He doesn't want to be with me and going dark with him living down stairs is not something I can do. any advice?