oophs Alison, I MUST wear my specs when reading-lol I mis read s15 for £i5. sorry. A senior moment. I now see your distress. Of course I think you are worth so much more than how H is treating you, my point was re dating that I feel right now in your anguish it would be a knee jerk reaction and whilst it would make you feel so good it would make you feel much worse in the cold light of a calm day-I worry you are not ready-even tho you feel/think you are. Good point about the ph. I have never used it but it looked a good thing when I read about it-hmm don't they always. I know how hard you fought for your m Alison and know you never wanted a D. How are the financials shaping up, have you seen your solicitor? The sooner it is all tied up maybe H will start to resemble a human being again-that in its self will be a double edged sword I guess. Stay strong, hold tight, nothing last forever. Vent away and hard tho it is try and find some humour in H,s antics. Hope you managed to explain to son why you were cross. Hows his attendance at school been since he went to H's or don't you hear about it. How is d? I had German measles 1mth before my wedding and I was so ill, my GP was delighted said he hadn,t seen such a good rash before. I haven't any advice re how to keep a rel. going with a waw H and kids.Mine just don't have one, from my pov reading of all the problems it brings about I guess I was lucky. Chin up Petal its always darkest before the dawn.