I went to lunch with H today. It was not good. I was already mad at him for only calling me when he wants something. We had gotten into an argument about it yesterday.

So today maybe I screwed up, but I really don't care. I really don't even remember everything I said, I was pretty mad. I brought up OW. He finally admitted he had sex with her. I knew it anyway, I just wanted him to tell me the truth. He also told me that she is wanting to come here to visit him, that she said she wanted to come here because she was worried about us getting back together. He said that he told her he didn't think it was a good idea, but who knows what he really told her.

I don't know why he told me that, but he said it mean. It was like he was trying to hurt me. I am done. He is still talking to her. He says he wants to work on us, but his actions don't say so. He won't go to counseling, he won't read the book, he won't move back in together, and he won't talk about anything...just gets angry at me if I dare mention anything. I may just be mad right now but I think I am seriously considering filing for divorce this week. I don't want him. I deserve better. I deserve someone who wants me back.

I also want to call OW. I need to get it out of my system. I have never called her, just sent her a text message one time.

I probably didn't even write anything coherant. I am furious right now.

Last edited by klm; 05/10/08 10:14 PM.
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