For the guy with kids and WW II

[hopeful4her]

Ok, while out mending fence and cutting lawn, I find I missed a call from B. Inviting me out with another mutual friend. Lord, give me strength. Today of all days for her to call me. I am going to be really lonely today. Her interest in me could just be in my head. Close friends that know my sitch and all of us, say that they think she likes me. Maybe were both just lonely.

WW just called about 30 minutes ago. Got to Laredo just fine about 45 minutes prior. FIL had some things to do, so WW rented a hotel and they are at the pool relaxing. Took a while to get there because she stopped off in a town to eat and to refresh. She started getting sleepy on the road. We talk a bit and I tell her that she sounds really tired. She says she is and it is hot. About 105 degrees hot! She says today might be a good day to totally stop smoking. I laughed and agreed. She tells me some of the things she planned and she'll call me later. She sounds out of it, and I suggest they all go take a nap later.

I tell her to be safe out there. She says, "I always am."

Sounds like they will stay overnight. I am at home. Alone. Nothing planned. The one that wants to go out with me, I probably shouldn't. As I was mowing, and after I heard the VM from B, I started to get pi**ed at WW. Why should I be treated this way? Why have I let her turn my world upside down? I don't need to be going through this sh**! Who knows how many EA's she has had. Did any become physical?! The emails I have found. The texts that I found. Different guys. WTF is wrong with me?! Why do I want to be with someone who would do this to me? Say the things that she has.

Because I know her deep down inside. I can see her, sometimes. I know she is still in there. Everything tells me that I will be disappointed.

I am in love with this woman.

Deeply.

Unconditionally.

Again, the burning question. How long am I going to wait for her to come "home"? This question haunts me.