Thanks, Nik and Michelle! \:\)

Had a pretty good time last night. We just hung out at my friend's house (a couple other GFs showed up, too, so that was cool!), had some margaritas , and watched the Simpsons movie , although I don't think any of us were really paying that much attention to it! Alcohol and gossip...that's what was really goin' on! \:D

Anyway, I showed up at my stepdad's brother's house at 9 this morning, but the health-at-home nurse never did! WTH??!! Waited an hour for her and tried calling the office number but got a recorded message (which said they are only open Monday through Friday - great). Well I left a VM saying, "I am here, WTF are YOU?!!" J/k! Although I really wanted to. \:\/ I did leave a message, so hopefully they call back (the recording said they check messages daily but at 8am, so they might not get it til tomorrow).

H called again yesterday before I was about to head out the door. He wanted to say hi to the kids, but I guess he forgot they were already gone. He said he was going to be at work for another hour. He also said he had his softball game that he was thinking of going to (he hasn't been able to play in any of his softball or soccer games ever since he sprained his ankle), but he wasn't sure. If he could be catcher, then he thought he would be able to play with no problems. He also mentioned that his game didn't start til 9pm.

As he's telling me all of this, I'm thinking, "Ok, he knows the kids are gone....Invite me to the game....Invite me to dinner....a movie.....anything....I'll cancel my plans....Just show me something."

Then he said, "Yeah, I think I'm going to try to play tonight, then have a couple of beers with the guys. What are you doing tonight?" I told him I was thinking of going over to (friend)'s house to just hang out, but I didn't have to.....Trying to leave an opening there for him......H said, "Are you still at the house?" I said yes, and he asked me, "How long until you leave?" I said, "If I do go over to (friend)'s, I'll leave in about 10 minutes or so. Why do you ask?" H said, "I don't know. Just asking. I might actually just go ahead and leave work right now, come home and take a shower.....There's tension between us, you know." I said I know. He said he just wanted to shower and be able to relax before going to his game.

I guess that meant he felt he wasn't going to be able to relax if I was going to be around because I might cause him to stress. *Sigh* Nice.

Then he asked me to set the alarm clock for him in case he got back to the house tonight before I did. He still hasn't figured out how to set the damn thing himself nor does he have the patience to even try. Anyway, I set it for him then left to my GF's house.

I got home around 11:30 last night, and H was still up even though he had to wake up at 4:30 this morning! I asked why wasn't he in bed already, and he said he didn't know. He couldn't sleep. But within 10 minutes of my arrival, he was ready for bed after we talked about watching (niece) for SIL again on Tuesday and some things he wanted me to pick up for him at the store today.

Ok, gotta go shopping then I'm off to work. \:\)

Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell