How do they walk away?

[Treese]

Well having a bad day....last night H was here fixing D21's brakes on her car....stayed until midnight....left...

Got up this morning internet was down...needed the grass cut, house was a mess....and I'm here to do it alone...grrrrrrrrr...I don't expect anything from H but what is starting to really tick me off is him having no responsibilities....he claims to love his children more than anything but doesn't offer to take them..not once in the 3 months he's been gone has he taken them overnight...he only sees them when it's convenient for him...

He left here at midnight and went straight to OW house overnight...how do they do it and feel good about it?? Doesn't he see that this is tearing my family apart?? I think I'm having a nervous breakdown...I am mom, dad, chauffer, servant, caretaker, house cleaner, launderer....you name it, I'm doing it..and all he has to do is get in his car, take money out and off he goes to OW house to screw her....without a care in the world...I know I'm complaining but I have to get it out before I blow up at him....I would love to chew him out but that will only prove his point to himself that he is happier without me...he already says he is....going in and having things done to his teeth now...so he doesn't have problems later..(What)..has time to work out, ride his motorcycle and just doesnt want to be married anymore...well,...........I need a break.....I'm exhausted....I'm scared....I'm lonely as heck....OW is living my dreams...the dreams me and H planned.....and I am sitting back and watching it unfold....

I WANT TO SCREAM........THIS IS NOT WHAT I SIGNED UP FOR....

sorry had to get it out again...

Treese