His not being mad made you angry? Really???? I did not feel angry at all!!! I prayed for him and was thankful we are still able to communicate.
As far as I am concerned this is a spiritual battle and one that only God can control and be in charge of. I knew that a few years ago as well but as humans, we tend to think we can change things and make people see things the way we see them.
What they need is lots of prayer.
H and I had another long talk lastnight--til after 3AM.
He says noone will ever know the things going on in his head every single day but, he said, somehow, God sustains him. Said there are times he cries, it is as if he is paralyzed many times, says he thinks about his family more than he cares to admit, loves us more than he could ever admit.
What feelings they had suppressed for so long finally start to re-emerge but they have to finish the battle on their own and away from those they truly love.
I think what is most effective for LBS's such as myself is that we NOT hold grudges, be ye kind (no matter how much we'd like to kick them in the butt), and carry on with our lives as best we can. And until their journey is finished, that is all we can do and instead of dwelling on it, we make the best out of what we have at the moment.
There is so much to be thankful for even though there have been some reough spots.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
