The decision is made

[ACJ]

Does anybody know where I can sell the hair that I just pulled out of my head in frustration?

I'm beginning to hate my H and I don't want that. I'm quite literally loosing my mind.

I had a telephone bill this morning that said I was a substantial amount of money in debit. Considering I pay all my bills up front on a monthly basis that is not good. when i checked the bill the 'overspend' was virtually the same amount as the cost of S15 phoning his GF on her mobile.

Now before you say, it's ok he is with H now this won't happen for a while I can tell from the bill that he is coming home at lunchtime (when I am at work) just to use the phone so this isn't likely to stop short of me not having a phone at all.

So I TMd H and asked him to bring S15 round this evening for me to discuss this with S15. His reply was to stop contacting him on his mobile. I was pretty angry with this so I TMd back 'Bring my son home and I can stop contacting you. In the meantime if I need to liaise with you about him I will be using this number' His ever so genteel response was that he was going to ask his L to take this court!

I knew all along that if I asked S15 to come here and discuss this he wouldn't come.Still I phoned him and he just said every time we speak mum it's for you to have a go at me. I tried to explain but he wasn't listening so eventually I told him I loved him, I hoped his exams this week went well and that when he wants to speak to me he knows where I am'

I have totally lost the plot. I should be in a mental institution.