Drowning, still...

[FaithfulH]

Round 'n round we go.....

I love her, but am becoming more and more detached.

This quote from your post yesterday evening indicates to me that you still don't understand detachment. Detachment is not the opposite of love! You detach BECAUSE you love them. Do you need to detach from the cute grocery clerk when she checks out your groceries? Of course not! You are not connected with her.

The cell phone kills me to, she is NEVER without it - that is a sign within itself.

Yeah, it sure is....another sign you're not detached. I almost counted the references to your W versus references to yourself in your last days worth of postings. Way out of balance! You are still far to focused on what she says, does, might be thinking, etc!

CBK, you really are doing good....and most of what you are doing...we all did in the beginning. I'm just trying to help you recognize that the sooner you REALLY detach...and REALLY focus on YOU....the sooner you'll see things turn.

Have fun with your parents! I think it is awesome they were even willing to come given the sitch. Most parents seem to feel their 'kids' hurt so much they want to be far from the sitch. You must have really strong parents. Remember to tell them how much you appreciate their support...but, also be clear that you are praying and working for the restoration of your marriage.

I hope you get a good night's rest...you've had a tough couple of days.