Yep, it's like L say's, you know you should turn away. Sometimes you know it & still don't turn.
Of course it'll be no surprise that I did the same thing!
Where to go from here.....taking your time is the first step & wise. Thing's will change on their own now w/out you doing a thing, (I'm kicking myself for not taking the very same advice from CVA, et al......I thought I was a stronger person).