Okay, my daily feel like garbage, getting all pissy sitting around waiting for mom and dad to get here. Tears welling up in my eyes, not even sure what brought this on. I almost told D20 to talk sense into mom, I didn't, but dang is it tempting. She seems so far sometimes, but so close other times. What is going on... I have been doing really well today, was actually playing WII - I HATE this emotional roller coaster - somebody hit the stop button.
W will work late tonight so she doesn't have to go into her school for the weekend since my parents are here. So I have been doing the chores around the house - being super husband - I don't want her to have to worry about house stuff, especially this weekend. I am wishing harm on this OM - I thought about telling W a lie and say somebody just called from her school to tell me that she is having an A... Don't know what that would accomplish, probably nothing. Idle minds think of horrible things. At least I haven't snooped.
Not feeling good right now, need to go walk around or something. WHY did she have to have an A??? Is this a deal breaker for me? I don't think so, but I want her to come back to R on her own. How can this happen?
Somebody throw me the magic wand, I want to use it, or the genie in the bottle, that would be good.
Okay, it is my once a day feel sorry for myself I guess.
Just had to vent,
CBK
M=46 W=47 M=24 (together 26) D21, S19 Bomb 3/16/08 OM 3/28/08 WAW moved out 5/16 Divorce final 10/09
