Mishka's- new thread/new tude - H who?

[mishka422]

I don't know what happened that got me into such a funk last night and this morning. I think I'm coming out of it again. That is just a terrible way to feel!

I had started to do better when I got to work and then around noon I got a text from H. He usually only sends me texts or calls me if it has something to do with S13. His text said that he was on administrative leave from work and had to go see "a shrink". GOOD GRIEF!!!!! So now this MLC is hitting his job hard. I have been scared to death for him since I realized just how far down he has gone into this depression. The man carries a gun for a living and has told me that sometimes he sits in his car alone at night and thinks, "What the heck. I've got a gun, I should just get this over with." He said the only thing that stopped him was thinking of our son. We traded texts back and forth for a few minutes. He told me he was at the psychiatrists office in the waiting room. I asked him to please call me later and he said he would. He knows I'm worried about him. I hope this doctor may be able to help him. My H will NOT take medication even though he needs it. He had actually been tested by our son's psychiatrist for ADD because of the similarities in behaviors that S13 and H share. My son has ADHD and Aspberger's syndrome and takes some pretty heavy duty medicines. The doctor determined that H has mild ADD based on the testing and prescribed Adderall for him. H took it for a while and said it really helped him focus A LOT! He suddenly stopped taking it and said he didn't like the way it made him feel. It didn't matter how much it helped him he just wouldn't take it anymore. Today he asked me if I still had the meds because the psychiatrist said he had to get back on them. I hope he puts him on more than that! The man needs AD's badly.

If he calls me tonight I'll let you know what he says. I'm not going to hold my breath though.