I'm not telling you anything you haven't learned......just want you to know that you aren't alone.
To be honest Sandi I probably need reminders now more than ever cos my mind does drift to thinking about my needs and healing my hurt, and I find myself looking back instead of keeping my eyes looking to the future. I drift cos I don't see W's pain but your explanations certainly puts thing back into prospective for me and straightens me out.
W doesn't talk about things so I have to look to her action which are in the main saying that she is back in the M. The last time we ML I started to drift and thought would we be doing this if she wanted out.(I can't remember what answer I came up with. ).
So yes this piecing is a long term repair process, and the pit fall are becoming more and more prominent as I move on so I need to keep side stepping them and get back to my best. Needless to say that I need to start planning for our wedding anniversary in September, that's another opportunity to show me at my best.
Saturday I ve got the day to myself so I ve set my self a reasonable target of reducing the clutter in the garage by 50%. The place has become too much of an obstacle course now and there's plenty of rubbish to throw out. I have my 10k run next week and my knee still hurts and I ve not trained for nearly 3 weeks so that's added to my frustration. But with a little care and attention I should be ok.
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