Jeff- I've never heard that poem/song. I'm a sucker for music. It gets me right to the heart.
I have to keep reminding myself that, like you said, at least I get the chance to make it work when others I see don't even get that chance.
I do feel forgiven by God. It will be harder to forgive myself I think.
h4h- you are right, I think too much and get myself all worked up. It is a good thing in that if I didn't think about stuff I would have left the marriage.....if I had gone with what I thought my "heart" was saying, I would have left a long time ago. You are also right that he is probably over me. That's what is so ridiculous, I know that and I still feel bad....it's like I want to fix it if that makes any sense. It's hard to not fix it.
Ok, after saying all that, let me say that today I feel pretty strong. . . .
WDID,
One of the reasons I think you are feeling strong is because you've been helping others. Using your own experience as a WAS to help other BSs here is a gift, and I'm proud of you for using it and reaching out to others that are in pain.
